It's A Boy!!

My wife and I went to the doctor today for an ultrasound and found out we're having a son in October!! When the lady told us, Laura cried and I got super excited. I almost shouted. I am so happy to have little girls, and I would've been pumped to have another one, but I am amazingly stoked to get a little boy. About 5 seconds after I almost shouted, I started to realize what had just happened. I have to raise a man. I am going to raise a son who will one day lead his family. I don't really know what to do with a boy. I have learned a ton about how to parent daughters, but I don't know anything about parenting a son. I have a lot to learn. Luckily, God is in control and is going to help me raise this little one, and He is hopefully going to pull this little boy out of death and destruction and into the family of God. My biggest prayer for this new one, as well as for the ones who are already here, is that he will be redeemed. I pray that God would snatch him out of death and bring him into life. I also am praying that God would teach me how to raise a son. Boys are very different than girls, and I am praying that I will be able to parent my kids accordingly. I don't really know what to think right now, but I do know that God is in control and is going to teach me how to love the crap out of this little man.

Stress

This last month has been absolutely crazy! I finished my classes at the university, so we are now looking for a job and a home in Houston. I have been to Houston once a week in my search and have so far been unsuccessful. Houston is expensive. To get a similar house in a similar neighbourhood as the one we're in now, I am going to have to pay $400 more each month! And that doesn't include the fact that electricity is more expensive in Houston. In my search for a home and a job, some faith issues surfaced. Turns out I don't trust God as much as I thought I did. For me, it's easy to say I trust God when everything is relatively stable, but when things start getting crazy, my true level of trust comes out and I am ashamed to say it's pretty miserable. I spent a day praying over the whole situation and that I would trust God more. It helped. At the end of the day I really felt God saying that he has always got me through everything and he's not going to stop now. I am beginning to gain some trust, but still nothing has happened. I still don't have a job and I still don't have a house, and I will still be moving in 3 weeks, but I know that God has everything worked out just right.

P.S. We could really use some prayer that we would find a house and I would find a job and that we would continue to trust God more and more.